Lilly land

It was a lonely summer
The begonias were in full bloom
Lighting up the porch in bright, pink shades
Upon the fence the bougainville blushed crimson.
Tulips and petunias swayed at the whisper of a wind,
An army of red against a dash of purple and blue
A sparrow fluttered by, a bee buzzed in symphony
A few steps away, upon the shade of a weeping willow lay
A cool, green pond away from the vivid summer hues
From its depths emerged a lone water lily
Slender and tall, pure white and ethereal.
A swirl of silver darts encircled its base
Piscean offsprings deriving their calm spirits
From the womb of their mother.

Like mother, like daughter (A women’s day special)

It was a hot, summer morning. My elder daughter was up and about earlier than usual. Carefully observing my every move through her careless curls, she was estimating if the household chores would carve into the time I had to feed her breakfast before leaving for office.

A few metres away -Appam and podi chammanthi (powdered coconut chutney) – the menu I had to feed her in exactly 20 minutes stared at me skeptically.

A cold breeze played across my face as the car pulled up at the parking lot of the hospital. We had left home at the wee hours of morning to beat the traffic to Kochi. Amma was resting on an armchair. Hair loosely tied behind, her curls framed her face in a beautiful arch. She looked tired. A cup of piping hot coffee and a neatly packed plate of breakfast sat untouched on the table. The canteen breakfast included Idiyappam and egg curry that Sunday.

….

The last morsel was always the toughest. Gentle nudges, stern overtones, tiny bribes and even drafting of negotiable contracts were witnessed at the dinner table for feeding her that last bite. While she chewed on her last bite feeling every fibre of the leavened appam before finally ingesting it, I made a quick getaway to get dressed.

She helped herself to tiny bites of the idiyappam with her right hand. The drip needle on her vein looked painful. The disease had taken a toll on her appetite. The strong meds didn’t help either. I gently rubbed her left arm, hoping each stroke would encourage her to eat, stay strong.

….

She was crying. As she emerged from her hiding corner she realised that her delay tactics hadn’t prevented me from leaving for work. As the elevator closed, she screamed drowning out the wails of her little sister, “Amma, please stay with me a little longer.”

….

She was done with breakfast. As she gulped down half a glass of water with a pill, I jotted down her intake on a notepad for patients. I wiped her face clean and helped her back to bed.

There was nothing left to do. It was time to leave. Visiting hours were over. I kissed her goodbye and walked out.

From the corner of my heart a voice whispered “Amma, please stay with me a little longer. Please.”

Lost and found

It was past midnight. It was closing hour at the restaurant. Some vehicles whizzed past the road despite the late hour.

Thulasidharan cleared the remnants of the ‘kuzhimanthi’ (a Yemeni rice dish similar to biriyani) from the last table.

It had been a long day. He had rushed back to work after voting. He barely had time to gobble up some lunch before joining the forenoon shift.

A red Maruti Alto was slowing down. Three men climbed out. They looked exhausted.

The restaurant owner beamed at his prospective customer. ‘Welcome Sir. What would you like to have? We have Kuzhmanthi, and Porotta and Chicken curry,’ he said directing his question to the gentleman who approached the counter.

‘Do you have any hot beverage, a black tea preferably?’ the man asked. ‘No. We could fix some milkshakes for you if needed, ‘ the owner said pulling out a menu.

‘No thanks,’ the man said, trying hard to hide his disappoinment.

The trio headed back to the car.

‘ Sir,’ a voice echoed from behind. It was the waiter. He quickly caught up with them.

‘Heading back from election duty?, ‘ he asked eyeing their badges. They nodded.

‘I live upstairs,’ Thulasi said pointing to the second floor of the restaurant. ‘If you want, I’ll head up and fix you guys a suleimani,’ he added.

The men nodded in relief. In 10 minutes, they were sipping down piping hot tea down their sore throats.

They thanked Thulasi and forced a 100 rupee note onto his hands despite his vehement opposition.

Thulasidharan

……………………

It was 11 am. He opened his eyes. His head still felt heavy. A severe cold was trying hard to open a floodgate in his nose and eyes. Election duty in the scorching heat for two days with little sleep had taken a toll on his body.

He checked his phone. Two miss calls from his wife, and another from a colleague.

He gave a quick call to his wife and ordered lunch. That was when he realised it. His wallet was missing. A quick search in his trouser pockets, bag and car confirmed his fear. It could be anywhere. He had been in many unfamiliar locations in the past 24 hours.

His stomach clutched into a tight knot. Five of his cards were in the wallet- 2 debit cards, PAN, PRAN, Election ID card.

He began tracing his steps. It could be in his colleague’s Alto, automatically dialling his number. The colleague was not home. He could confirm after checking the car parked at his home garage. Until then it was a painful wait.

The phone rang by 5 pm. It was not in the Alto car. He kept the phone with a sinking feeling.

When the phone rang again an hour later, he was browsing the bank’s details to block the card.

He was pleasantly surprised. He couldn’t help but wonder how the waiter managed to secure his number.

‘I have been trying to find your number since yesterday. Finally got it from your home police station. I have your wallet.’

He felt a warm tingling sensation in his throat, as though he had sipped a hot cup of suleimani on a chilly midnight.

Goan Chronicles (Part 2): Fort Aguada

It was sweltering hot. My daughter was lost for words as to why her parents and grandparents would bring her to this morose looking building at this time of the day. Usually, she manages to babble some gibberish to express her discontent but today, she adopted a more bothersome strategy-whining in the lines of a modern day siren.

Fort Aguada was an impending structure from the seventeenth century built with laterite blocks. Being more familiar with the grandiose forts and structures from the Mughal dynasty (perks of being a Delhhiite briefly), I was surprised at the simplicity of this structure made a few decades before the completion of Red Fort.

That’s when I decided to do a little homework on the history of the structure. It’s interesting how much a building echoes the history and culture of a dynasty or empire. During an interim period of sixty years (1580-1640), the Portuguese architecture followed a largely utilitarian perspective significant for its lack of adornments. Perhaps, the Portugal-Spain union at the time due to the lack of Portuguese heir left little room for the evolution of a more elaborate architectural style. Interestingly enough this period was named “Arquitecture chã” (plain architecture) by an American art historian, George Kubler in the twentieth century. The fort design itself is the work of Italian military architects hired by the Portuguese government in Lisbon.

However, the fort’s naiveté cannot be misunderstood for its ineptness. It was one of the key factors which helped the empire retain its power in Goa till the 20th century. During a brief standoff with the Dutch ships at the mouth of River Mandovi, the Portuguese- purportedly, the proprietors of an envy reckoning Maritime Empire- faltered in its usually flawless defense. The Portuguese relying on the fortresses of Reis Magos and Gaspar Dias on the river front found their defence exposed.

This self-realization about their naval disadvantage at Marmagao harbor (where Mandovi and Zuari rivers join) led to the construction of Fort Aguada at the shore of River Mandovi and Fort Murmagao at the shore of River Zuari.

We walked about the fort, studying its structures trying to embrace the heritage it carried.

The Aguada Fort in its entirety consists of a lower and upper fort. Besides serving the essential purposes of a fort such as security, defense, and storage for food and ammunition, its strategic location near a natural spring made it a watering station for passing ships. The reason for its etymology is also this 2.3 million-gallon-water-supply provision. Aguada translates to ‘watering place’ in Portuguese. It is believed that this intimidating structure hosted 200 cannons once upon a time.

In a solitary corner of the upper fort, one can find a light house- a four-storeyed structure with an air of superiority about it. Perhaps, owing to fact that it was built at a time when bonfire beacons were trending or the fact that it’s much younger than the rest of the structures- two centuries after the fort was built.

Inaccessible to the public, some of the staircases in the fort lead down to unknown depths. If one stayed at the top of these stairs, occasionally a drift of cool air would waft by sending a cold shiver your spine.

We did however; ascend these stairs up to the fortified walls to view the beach below. Leaning onto the cold weathered brick wall of the fort, she stared far down from my arms. The waves far below, the strong gust of wind on her face and the breathtaking landscape left her mesmerized. As those tiny fingers felt the cool perforated bricks, nature etched some faint impression on her palms. The bond between nature and this tiny human being was formidable and beautiful at the same time.

A Goan Chronicle: The Beginning

It was a short flight, almost uneventful, considering the fact that our child is one, a thriving age for mischief. Oddly enough, the 500 mile journey had done nothing to bring about a change in scenery. The coconut trees, the lush green landscape, the cozy homes sporting a veranda in memory of a Portuguese heritage, the salty smell of the ocean lingering above us, were all reminiscent of the home we just left behind. The Las Vegas of India, Goa and God’s Own Country, Kerala could have been one and the same.

In fact, the legend has it that the two states have a common creator. It is believed that Sage Parasuram, the sixth incarnation of Vishnu purged the land of the corrupt Kshatriya rule and created the stretch of land including Goa, from the sea for the in-habitation of Brahmins. The stretch of land from Gokarna to Kanyakumari (including Kerala) was also purportedly the handiwork of Sage Parasuram.

Our driver was a rather chatty one. He spoke about the government,  infrastructure, tourism, everything in Goa and beyond as we raced to our stay for the next two days. When we pointed that the landscape in his land was not very different from ours, he said ‘Samudra tho eki hain,’ (the ocean is one and the same everywhere) unaware that his statement carried a more than literal interpretation to it.

Several towering columns loomed over us sketching the outline of the future Zuari bridge.  In the next couple of days, we would realize that this mammoth eight-lane cable stayed bridge with split carriageway and elevated four/six lane corridors has already become an integral part of Goa’s cityscape much before its completion.

Our stay was in an old family run resort set picturesquely in a beautifully maintained tropical garden. An extension of the Candolim beach ran behind the resort setting the mood for a beautiful holiday. The fact that they decided to scatter the different facilities in the resort (reception, restaurant, bar, rooms etc) in this flourishing garden with green pathways, blooming arches and vertical gardens, in an asymmetric manner made it all the more appealing.

After a rather overwhelming breakfast consisting of sausages, bacon and eggs, we decided to pay a  visit the resort’s private beach. My one year old let out a cry of exclamation and stared at the vast expense of the sea in awe and disbelief. As the white frothy waves raced up to her feet, she clung to me in fear. The rather tearful encounter quickly transitioned into a joyous one when I taught her how to make sand castles. Those little eyes brightened in joy. For the first time in her life she had permission to immerse herself in dirt.

She was beginning to embrace the sea in all its magnitude.

In the Time of Flood: A Testimony

Dear North Indians, South Indians and Indians…

When the heavens opened upon our little state of Kerala, in May 2018, a couple of days earlier than usual, we rejoiced, hoping it would fill our dried up wells and aid our harvests. When the rain lashed its fury upon us and a couple of my sandals broke braving the water and muddy grounds, I thought it was going to be a particularly overwhelming monsoon but nothing more.  When the dams started filling up and the water levels rose above normal, we were worried but never comprehended the consequences that would befall if those shutters opened. And then one day, after days and days of anticipation, the shutters were raised. Water sped its way through known and unknown routes finding space in our little homes, shops, roads and flooding every nook and corner. It was Poseidon himself pursuing us with his trident!

It was scary. Women, children and aged left stranded on roof-tops. Those on safe ground, ran about the streets grabbing every morsel, money could buy to last through the disaster.

Meanwhile, some idiots sitting in their comfortable homes elsewhere took to social media and other platforms to blame the State and its people for the disaster which befell upon it. To these people, I have something to say. Respecting cows and for that matter any living being is a fine quality. But if this is at the cost of humanity and empathy for fellow human beings in distress, you are furthest from the very God you try to appease.

I have had friends from across India,  people who I haven’t talked to in years call me up to ask if my family was doing okay. An office correspondent, an individual I have never seen in my life, a Philippine girl in Dubai, reached out when she didn’t see my weekly mail. My family and I, were among the few who were fortunate enough to be not affected by the floods. Despite this, being within the constraints of our flat with our one-year-old with the lurking possibility of provisions running out  was not easy. When we emerged from our home 5 days later, I was reminded of Noah emerging from his ark after the great flood.

In the larger picture, groups based in Chennai, Bangalore, Mumbai and elsewhere contributed in every way possible irrespective of any differentiation. It was the grit and determination of everyone that got us through this disaster. Boats crossed highways navigating through the debris and helicopters piloted their way through the stormy  skies to rescue families. The government (both State and Centre), the police force, the army, the NDRF, the fisher folks and most importantly the common man worked tirelessly to rescue the stranded and helpless. Men and women contributed selflessly to relief camps providing comfort to the forsaken ones.

To everyone, who helped or even prayed for Kerala in this severe time, we offer a big thank you! Thank you for caring, irrespective of your state, language, religion or differences. We shall not judge you on the basis of some individuals or the central government aid. Please continue to pray and help us. The worst maybe over but this wound is deep one. It’ll need careful tending to!

The Little Walks

image1In my childhood when the desert storm raged outside our flat in Sharjah,  I’d close my eyes and imagine the pitter patter of the rain on the red roof tiles of our ancestral home in Kerala. The feeling was even stronger during the months following our summer break in Kerala. During most of our Kerala bound vacations, the monsoons would lash out their fury with all might finding their way into our comfortable homes inciting my poor Ammachi to evenly distribute her aluminum vessels with charred bottoms around the house, to collect the trickling water. These drippings from the roof would sound from various corners of the house to create a soothing symphony almost lulling one into a peaceful sleep.

A decade later as I walked to my office watching the rain drops roll off the edges of my maroon umbrella, I realized that I was living my childhood fantasy without ever realizing it. Adulthood was such. You seldom have the time to cherish the things you’ve gained in life while you chase your dreams. The little things in life –the tiny hands that latch on to my jeans when I return home, the warm cup of tea I sip as I listen to the narration of my little one’s antics from her nanny, that heavy foot (my husband’s) that rests on my lap on a lazy evening, the warmth of my little home when the rain is pouring outside–are all that matter to measure my happiness. Perhaps, that’s why Bhutan has the highest happiness index in the world. The nation’s all about the little things.

During one of my little walks to office, I realized how important these small journeys have been in my life– en-route to school, college or work. The frantic efforts to finish my math homework in the school bus while catching on gossip, the sharing of an unfinished tiffin on the journey back home and the relentless discussions on Harry Potter with my neighbor are some of the school bus moments I recollect fondly.

In College, every journey was unique, at first due to the strangeness of the place, the language and the people, and later due to the familiarity and comfort in the same. The icy cold wind that whisked on my face on those Delhi winters  while rushing towards the 8.40 lecture, the water balloons that exploded on my head en-route to hostel during the ‘Holi’ week, and those conversations about economics, life and love during the long walks after class hits me with a strange sense of nostalgia.

In Masters, these walks/journeys took a different turn. Though strategically located with respect to all other aspects–multiplexes, malls and eateries–my residence in Pune, was a 3 km walk from college. On most days I’d start for college an hour before and treat myself to a brunch of mouth-watering plate of authentic Maharashtrian poha topped with peanuts , bhujia and tinge of lemon. The steaming hot half cutting masala chai that came along was my sole motivation to walk my way to college every day.

There were days when a group of us would climb the hill near our college after class and watch the sunset. On other days when a class got cancelled or we ended up in college earlier than expected, we’d explore a fort, a temple or a ruin nearby. Sometimes I’d ride around the city in a friend’s bike braving the unexpected rain slapping on our faces.

My second run in Delhi was quite different from my college days. My journey to my office in Connaught Place–a combination of a 15 minute ride in a dilapidated share auto stuffed with people, a metro ride of 30 minutes and a 10 minute walk from the metro ride–was memorable primarily, due to the different types of people I’d encounter on my way. On a typical week day, I’d meet three to four interesting categories of individuals in the ladies compartment of the metro: the well-groomed Delhiite clad in the latest fashion with every eyelash in place; the chubby Punjabi Aunty and her friend, giggling their way back from a shopping spree in Sarojini Nagar; the UPSC candidate, with her nose deep inside the editorials of The Hindu or the Constitution of India; the perpetually lost lady, frequently glancing at the metro map with blinking dots to ensure she’s headed the right way. Of course there were others: the one with the headphones, the one with the chips packet, the one with the boyfriend on the other line, the one from the airport/railway station, the one with a book. These rides were critical in shaping my interest in studying people or as my friend would crudely put it-crowd watching.

As far as Kerala is concerned, the walks in this state are beautiful just for their inherent scenic beauty. On my way to office I usually pass my laundry guy, a man in his late forties clad in a skull cap and a warm smile. A steaming hot charcoal iron placed beside him would gracefully puff wisps of smoke into the air before ironing out the wrinkles on the shirt laid out on the table. Meanwhile, a Bollywood song from the sixties would play from a National Panasonic radio in the shop, setting the mood for my morning walk.

A fish shop, a vegetable vendor and a grocery store would follow, mainly to cater to the needs of the Bengali colony that  existed a few meters away. Crossing these vendors, laborers in florescent overalls and yellow helmets would head for their contract jobs while chattering in their native tongues.

A private bus heading to the other end of town would lie in wait for more passengers creating a traffic jam right at a tea point. Past  the junction, the honking and unpleasant mouthing, there’s a straight road downhill heading to InfoPark, the famous IT hub in Kerala.  This road incidentally is noticeable for its almost non-existent sidewalk. Despite its inadequacy, hundreds of pedestrians walk this way jumping potholes and evading speeding vehicles. On a rainy day, they’d display their ambidexterity by holding on to their side bags and struggling to keep their umbrellas open. Meanwhile, small rivulets would trickle down road (or downstream) merging at small holes in the walkway, splashing a vivid imagination in one’s mind- a Liliputian lake with tiny pebbles and underwater vegetation. Bits and pieces of plastic, paper wrappers, cigarette cases, bottles, broken sandals and on odd occasions, a used tube of fairness cream floated about this metropolitan riverine system.

While on one side the morning traffic rushes by, on the other side of my walkway,  houses, open spaces and fences whisper from their comfortable niches. A once painted concrete wall would boast a refreshing green of moss. A kind of ivy creeps all over another wall inviting the envy of any modern day vertical gardener  . Earthworms sometimes dangle from the branches of a tree that bends over these fences. On one occasion, I even spotted a packet of milk resting right on top of a fence quite oblivious to the mismatch of its surroundings. Whether it was a tribute to the naga king cobra that might be beyond that fence or an honest mistake of a passerby, I know not.

After the deserted space of land and its bordering fence, comes a brightly painted vada pav store with one employee- a bewildered looking man in his thirties sporting  a red cap and apron hoping  his reinterpretation of the Maharashtrian delicacy might convince a customer to enter. Next up, there’s a hypermarket, and a food court targeting the InfoPark techies. At the end of this journey lies  the InfoPark Campus, at the riverbed of the Kadambrayar. This co-existence of the modern and the natural is a beauty to behold as long as the latter remains intact and unaffected.

These little walks in my life has been central to molding a part of me, perhaps the more beautiful part. They’ve helped me observe, introspect, and most importantly breathe. Small is beautiful indeed!

Nipah: The New Virus in Town

c1mb05204gThe Nipah virus is the new talk of the town and for no small reason. This little known virus has infected and killed 10 individuals in the hitherto, peaceful town of Perambra in Kozhikode, Kerala. The media has gone berserk with multiple reports on the disease alarming the people at large. A few jokes have also gotten viral in the meantime: Apple products to be banned since the apple icon was bitten off by a bat, Bacardi Rum might be the genesis of the disease considering its logo-  a bat, the list goes on and on.

Treating the outbreak with a light heart and sound mind is advisable under the circumstances. The disease has not yet reached epidemic proportions. But caution has to be exercised where necessary. This article is meant to be an informative read to those interested in following the virus and its take-off.

According to WHO, the Nipah Virus  is an RNA virus that was first identified as a zoonotic (spread from animals to humans) pathogen after an outbreak involving severe respiratory illness in pigs and encephalitic disease in humans.

Since, Nipah is an RNA virus it is more predisposed to mutation than a DNA virus. One of the primary reasons  why a cure has not been discovered for the virus despite its origin being traced to two decades back, is this. The solution thus, maybe narrowed down to two: first, prevention, and second, correct diagnosis and intensive care and isolation, post diagnosis. The long term solution is of course, more allocation of resources- financial and human- to the R &D department for finding a suitable vaccine.

The symptoms displayed by those affected by Nipah virus include flu-like symptoms like fever, headache, drowsiness, disorientation, mental confusion, acute respiratory infection, encephalitis, coma and death. The infestation of disease can result in perfectly healthy individuals ending up in a coma the next day with inflamed brains.

The etymology of the virus can be traced to its place of origin-Kampung Sungai Nipah, Malaysia. The pig farmers in the area during the period 1999 were diagnosed with disease. Around 40% of those infected were killed at the time. It is believed that the virus which first manifested in forest fruit bats appeared in pigs when the pigs ate the bat excreta.

So why did the forest fruit bats make an appearance in human settlements? According to a paper by Looi LM and Chua KB (2007), the El-Nino driven drought and anthropogenic forest fires maybe the reason for this migration.  Chua in fact was one of the virologists who pioneered in the isolation of the paramyxo virus (virus spread to humans from animals) and the control of the disease itself. The disease was finally brought under control through pig culling-segregation  of the diseased pigs from the breeding stock and killing them. The consequent efforts of the Malaysian government to maintain cleaner pig farms with no chance of interaction with other animals and allocation of specific pockets for pig farming has kept the disease at bay in the country.

It has then reappeared in Bangladesh and India at the turn of the new millennia. The infestation of the palm juice (used as toddy) by the fruit bats was the reason for the last, 2007 outbreak.

The virus had however, been laying low for the past decade or so.

The reason it manifested in Kerala will remain unknown till the research bears fruit. But meanwhile it would be wise to exercise caution in the following areas:

  1. Avoid eating fruits likely to be infested by bats, especially dates. The fruits must be washed thoroughly before consumption.
  2. Avoid drinking toddy.
  3. Avoid eating pork.
  4. Pig farmers should exercise great caution and observe their animals for any changes like open mouth breathing, leg weakness with muscle tremors and neurologic twitches
  5. Stay away from people of infection
  6. Get admitted immediately if any of the symptoms shows up. A mandate has been issued by the Kerala government that no hospitals- private or public can deny treatment if an individual infested by Nipah virus approaches
  7. A quarantine of infected individuals
  8. Hospital staff should exercise great caution while treating infected patients. Wearing of protection gear while approaching the patient and cleaning up afterward could be a start.

Meanwhile the government needs to focus on three areas: treatment of the infected, identification of the cause and its elimination thereof, and finding a cure to the disease. Covering the well which was the likely source of infection is a start but only a preliminary step. The efforts by the state government and the National Centre for Disease Control has been prompt and proficient so far. But a fall in the number of Nipah cases, should not be a reason for their enthusiasm to wane. The root cause needs to be identified and eliminated before it waits to strike again!

 

15th May 2017

paathu

It was 3 am. I had to pee yet again. Not an uncommon thing for a fully pregnant woman. ‘Think, I’m losing control over my bladder,’ I said, waking up my sleeping husband. ‘We’ll call up the hospital and have a word with the doc tomorrow morning. Perhaps it’s common when the due date nears’

If only we knew how ‘near’ it was.

6.00 am

Amma sits in the kitchen reading the newspaper. ‘’Amma, I can’t control my urine anymore. It keeps trickling down” She utters a small scream. My husband and I, stare at her in horror. She looked like she was undergoing labour. “The baby is coming!” she cries finally finding her voice. We were in the car in no time, rushing to the hospital in the fastest pace possible given my condition.

“Shall we stop for breakfast?” My husband asks, wrecking the nerves of my poor mother who was already at her wits end.  She stares at him shaking her head in utter disbelief at our ignorance.

7.30 am

My husband laughs and parks the car in the hospital’s parking lot. I was immediately admitted into the Labour Room. ”The baby is definitely coming. The water is leaking. Ordinarily it breaks.”(Yes, I thought, that’s what the movies said.)” It would take a few hours though, a day even,” they said. ”The contractions, the painless ones have just begun.”

11.30 am

The contractions, the painful ones finally begin. I scream in agony. “It’ll probably be nightfall before the baby comes. You’ll have to endure the pain till then” the nurse says. I look at her in disbelief.

12.15 pm

I’m chit chatting with nurse, in the washroom. ‘’I feel like relieving myself but there’s nothing in my system…” I say casually. Her face becomes pale, her eyes widen. “The baby is coming!!!’ She opens the door and screams to the other staff. “Please don’t push yet. The doctor’s out for lunch”, she tells turning back to me.  ‘I can’t help it really’ I think in my head as she pulls me out of the washroom. My body was not under my bidding anymore.

12.30 pm

I’m on the delivery table. The doctor rushes into the labour room panting. A med student accompanied her. She explains the procedure step by step to the student. She notices the jewellery on me-my wedding ring and chain, and chooses to ignore them. There was simply no time to remove those.

1.00 pm

“PUSH. PUSH. PUSH” a chorus rings

1.01 pm

‘Waaaaa’ one single cry echoes in the labour room. I see a white pale human being. Seven individuals smile in relief. The fact that a delivery was a commonplace activity for most of them did not however, dull the beauty of the moment. The miracle of birth left a wondrous emotion amongst all of us. A tiny pink finger touched my cheek. The pink body shuddered at the mother’s touch. Tears glistened at the corner of my eye.

01.04 pm

‘Is it a girl or a boy?’

‘Girl’ The friendly nurse says.

‘I have a daughter.’ I close my eyes smiling.

1.10 pm

My husband holds her in his arms. He was a born father. I knew that very instinct. He smiles at me in pride. ‘Ours’, his eyes said.

………………………………………………

Prarthana turns a year today. I cannot spell out the joy, I’ve experienced the past one year in raising this child. Her smile, her growing mischief, her sweet little kisses, her tiny unbalanced steps and her tantrums mean the world to us. We’ll always treasure you our little one. You are our firstborn; the first gift heaven has blessed us with!

So here’s wishing you a wonderful year ahead, our dear little Paathu kutty! May God bless you abundantly and guide you through all your ups and downs!

A Mathematic Predicament

hated_math_1200x627A hot sweltering summer, it was

A harmony of stupor,

Hid in a fruit fly’s buzz

And a bead of sweat

Danced in concord

On his tiny temple

 

Far below, the alphabet

English and ancient Greek

Dangled from twos and threes

In a modern papyrus, so sleek

The accessories of a lingua franca

Were adorned by the science of quantity

The quick brown fox waited

And the lazy dog waited

An angle of elevation

Was to be determined

In the corners of a leaflet

While Velocity expected her turn

 

 

A compass awaited, to navigate

Through the coordinates of space

Stick figurines, black monochrome

Hopped out in its symphony with lead

A protractor yawned, yearning

To feel their tilts and turns

 

Engaged in a never-ending waltz

Digits, and letters, and shapes

Drifted in and out of his Math paper

The déjà vu, he wished to end

He was no Ramanujan, Pi or Fibonacci

Eternity in digits was a curse and no less.